Clouds are manufactured here

Ever get the feeling that life is in the midst of a not-so-subtle course correction? That things are changing and you’re standing in the eye of the cyclone. Calm. Still. When everything else is in a whirlwind and things are changing everywhere for you? Ever felt that way? My life’s in the midst of an upheaval. Not the bad kind though. Its like every piece of my life is moving and taking its rightful place finally. Its the feeling of fixing the right puzzle piece in the right place in the bigger picture. That ‘click’ as the piece snaps into place, that just tells you that this is where this piece is meant to go.

“Meant to be”, “fits”, “fate”,”destiny”, just words most people might not believe in. I do though. Some things are just the way they are supposed to be. Some things are meant to happen. I’ve fought all my life for control over my destiny, and its not like I didn’t manage to do the things that I wanted to do. I did. I just didn’t have the peace of mind that I was hoping to have while doing it. And thats the thing. It’s not that you can’t break away from destiny and do the things you want to do; a lot of people aren’t even lucky enough to have an inkling of their destiny. I wonder why though. I think when a child comes into this world, he ought to be given signposts as to where his life is headed and where he will find peace and in doing what. Then if he wants to break away and do something else, he can. Everyone should be given a sneak peek into The Plan. That way maybe so many of us wouldn’t take so long in finding inner peace. We wouldn’t have to fight everyday of our lives only to realize maybe we were better off doing something else.

Most people don’t get a second chance like I did. I’m the luckiest person in the world and I intend to make the most of it. I’m still pretty much clueless as to what I really want to do with my life, but I’m getting there. Helping people pleases me. Studying them too. Problem solving is my forte. I took the career counseling test and the results I got were as conflicted as I am: Criminologist, Computer Programmer or Psychologist. Jeez! What to do!? Wing it I guess. Get done, get out and see what you FEEL like doing. There might not be many opportunities for a person like me in Pakistan, but in the States, I could do whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like it. I didn’t fit in there but over here, I don’t have to. Design today, counsel the next, program the day after! The land of opportunities right? I certainly hope so!

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